Saturday, September 20, 2003

I guess i have a lot of explaining/catchingup to do...

But right now is not the time that it's gonna happen! :-)

I'm sorry that it's been so long since i last wrote to you all to tell you what's been going on - but i feel secure in suppositioning that HAD i been blogging, the real meat of the conversations would have sounded like this:

Kim and I are probably gonna break up...
Kim and I are gonna work out our differences! ... i think.
Kim and i are totally over.
Kim and i had a break through!
Kim and i hate each other.
We're so in love!

Note that the last entry speaks more of hope for the relationship than anything - note that i'm adding a "note" about that entry, which usually means there's more to it than that. ::sigh:: i guess i can sum it all up by saying that things haven't really gotten better. They did for a few days, but now it's back to the same old paranoid-delusional generally EXTREMELY unhealthy relationship that it's been for quite some time now.

And who said change happens?

This is the way the world ends, this is the way the world ends, this is the way the world ends - not with a bang, but a whimper.

So i'm at my sister's placed in Cali, and we're gonna play some scrabble - Kim is out with a group of people that her brother's friend knows, and i think they're going to a party in Beverly Hills. She asked if we wanted to come, but i don't. If not for the simple fact that if i went, i know that my sister and i wouldn't really have a good time, and it would probably make Kim have a not good time too - all that plus the fact that i think she's annoying as hell when she drinks means that i'm not really tempted to go out, yknow?

So instead, my sister and i are gonna go see underworld at 10 - though i fully intend to see it again with Elise and B.

There's something, btw - you're comin with us next time B! (even if it's just a "me" instead) I think we'd have a lot of fun out here, even if you and my sister talk about random TV and movie stuff half the time ;-)

Anyways, i'm gonna go now. I wish i didn't have to, cause i feel like i'm about ready to explode... but alas and alack.

More later!



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